I started university about 5 weeks ago and the first week is called freshers week. It’s a week of mingling, making friends, getting wasted and nursing hangovers with junk food. Before starting Uni I thought about how this would affect the healthy life style that I’m trying to build and I just said to myself “I’m dedicated enough so I’ll say no to bad food and alcohol” and that would be it! But then the first week of Uni arrives and this is how it went…
My first day here was also my first night out. While I managed to resist drinking, which I was very proud of, the next morning I also resisted eating a full English breakfast too. To my own surprise I was actually sticking to my fitness lifestyle – for about two days.
Now I’ll say it wasnt peer pressure but I definitely felt that people were connecting and building friendships over alcohol and pizza and somewhat felt left out. Like they say, if you can’t beat them join them, right? Throughout the remaining freshers week I went out, got drunk and ate crap – lots of crap.
During the second week of Uni however, I disliked my body and was not happy with what I was seeing. I had put on 3lbs but felt at least a stone heavier. On top of that I felt totally untoned, very loose and saggy. So I sorted out my gym membership, started working out again but diet still wasn’t in tune. After everyone settled in Uni and we all actually went out to buy food that can be cooked instead of takeouts everyday, my diet slowly returned back to healthy.
Now I can sit and watch my flat mates eat pizza while I tuck into my tuna and veg. In saying that, I allow myself 2 cheat days so I can mingle and actually go out for lunch/dinner with new people.
What the initial few weeks taught me was that it’s all about finding a balance for yourself and right now I think I’ve found my balance. I’d be lying to myself by saying that I wont drink or go to social events. Depriving my self of the social benefit of Uni wont help my mental state. You cannot out train a bad diet but when I drink I do extra cardio to try and compensate for it; thats just to make myself feel better and not get depressed.
I’m currently consuming 3 meals a day but slowly trying to get that to 5 small meals. My body is responding really well and I no longer feel huge! 😂
Once in a while we all sit back and ask ourselves “What exactly am I trying to achieve?” and today was when I asked myself exactly that. Oddly enough I decided everything I want to achieve and the time frame in which I want to achieve it in.
Short term goals:
1) My short term goal is to compete in Musclemania in 2 weeks because I’d really like to gain experience on stage and to confirm to myself that this is what I want to do.
2) To work my ass off after Musclemania and to get my body in an even better shape, which I know is going to be extremely difficult primarily because I’m starting university one week after Musclemania. We already know that Freshers Week means Alcohol week, but ultimately I’m going to try to limit my alcohol intake and gradually quit for good.
Long term goals:
1) To do 2-3 more shows while I’m at Uni because I can only really prepare and go into full contest mode after exams. This means I can only do shows that are in September or October. During the Summer is when I’ll be able to do a lot of my preparation work.
2) While after University, so basically after 3 years of intense studying, I’m hoping to pursue and gain my Pro Card. Yes guys, I’ve decided I want to become a professional bikini body builder. I’m waiting till after University because, although I’m very passionate about fitness my education does come first. Trying to go Pro takes the dedication of a full time job and I am not willing to sacrifice my university results for that.
Once you get yourself goals it’s much easier for you to follow and actually achieve them because you know exactly what you want.
I’m overwhelmingly excited for my future and as always I will be posting progress pictures (good or bad) on my instagram which is: lolasfitnessjourney
Let me know on twitter what your long term and short term fitness goals are: @lolafithd
I want bigger quads, bigger calves, bigger hams, bigger biceps, BIGGER EVERYTHING! I train calves 3 times a week because I want bigger calves and hamstrings twice a week because I want them bigger also. I find myself doing bicep curls inbetween sets because I want bigger biceps simply because i’m just not satisfied with my improvements where I want them more than anything and faster.
This is a good and a bad thing, good because I improve my body and look better, bad because I let it consume me and i’m also forgetting the fact that genetics plays such a big part in the growth of my muscles. My calves wont get any bigger they’ll just look more toned, my biceps will never be as big as I want them to be because I’m a female and my hams are probably reaching their growth capacity. This is an upsetting fact but its a fact non the less.
We all have to get to a stage where we accept that genetics are a bitch and start cutting ourselves some slack, but not to much slack.
I just want more and I dont think i’ll ever be fully satisfied yet I think to myself “Yeah they are bigger than 2 weeks ago but they are still not big enough”. While other times I think to myself “It doesn’t look any different”. I even think one bicep is bigger than the other although I work them just the same amount. Its hard to accept that its all just psychological when you’re convinced you’r right!
3 weeks and a bit till the competition so muscles better just GROOOOWWW, GROOOWWW, GROOOWW!!!!!!
Its officially 6 weeks before competition.
For the past 2 days i’ve had a major drop in confidence, i keep looking at pictures of girls that are competing in 6 weeks time and they look so much better than me, they could probably go on stage right now and win, this has lead to me questioning why i’m putting myself through this emotional stress, and lead to a mini binge (when i say mini binge i mean eating food i enjoy such as brown stew chicken and rice) it did NOT make me feel any better about myself infact it made me feel soo much worse and made me question how committed i really am, leading to more self doubt and more loss in confidence (vicious cycle), although my diet wasnt going to plan i was still following my exercise plan.
I had a mini epiphany this morning and decided this is 100% what i want, i am 100% dedicated and will work my ass off to get where i need to be, it wont be easy and i do have to work harder than other girls but it’ll be worth every second of it, also decided i need to stop looking at what others have achieved and how far i have to go but instead look at what i’ve achieved and how far i’ve come, i recommend taking progress pictures, mine just stopped me from giving up and going back to square one, the next 6 weeks will be blood, sweat and tears but i’m ready for it.
I wrote top half of this blog a week ago, since then my confidence is back and i’m working harder than ever, my revised diet and exercise plan makes me feel better and more confident i now have 5 weeks before competition time and i’m so ready, i can see the significant changes in my body and it excites me that i’ve changed this much in such a short time.
The most common question i get asked in regards to fitness is “why are you doing this?” So it makes sense that my first blog will be an explanation of what i’m doing and why i’m doing it.
I’ve been going to the gym on and off for the past 3 years, and i’ve always stopped because my main goal would be to lose weight, and since i lose weight pretty quickly i get bored and stop and the weight piles back on.
When i started working out again about 5 weeks ago again my main aim was to lose weight, i just wanted to be 9st, i got in touch with a personal trainer and trained with him and my sister(who’s also my gym partner).
A week into my training sessions with my personal trainer he had me doing deadlifts highly weighted squats and lifting weights i didn’t know my body was capable of lifting, so it stopped being about losing weight and about actually getting strong, i’m naturally a competitive person so i loved beating my personal bests each week, during this time i also started eating really healthy and limited the amount of carbs i ate, i also introduced more fruit and veg into my diet, i then created an Instagram page to document my “journey” the response i got from my Instagram page was over whelming, people were messaging me telling me how much i inspired them to want to get fit after seeing my progress.
Fast forward to week 4 of starting fitness, i met up with the founder of team HD (champion of musclemania 2013) who had seen my dedication and progress online and asked me to be part of the team to which i agreed, then came the suggestion that i actually start training to compete in the bikini division of muscle mania in September, i protested because it would mean i only had 8 weeks to get my body competition ready, and that would be gruelling, after a long conversation and the use of “theres no such thing as cant” i actually agreed, so for the past week i’ve been prepping and training to compete for Miss bikini uk, its important to remember that some people have been prepping for this competition for about 5 months and i’ve only had 2, i’m doing this for the experience (but who doesn’t like to win) and to get a taste of competition life.
So to answer the question no i’m not doing this to get a summer body, i’m not pushing my body to its limits to be accepted by people, i’m doing this for me, i’m doing this because i’ve learnt to love the sport and because nothing makes me happier than training, i’m 100% addicted to the endorphins and to the lifestyle.